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Aug. 1st, 2013


Realizing that he was unable to understand it, he became bored

Been wanting to get some more thoughts on Anna Karenina down for several days now, but just can't seem to get myself together.

He has all the rights, and I have noneCollapse )

Jul. 31st, 2013


Bio 6.0

February, 2012--July 2013

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Jul. 28th, 2013


He felt what a murderer must feel when he looks at the body he has deprived at life

I’m liking Anna Karenina a lot more now than I did when I first started reading it, but Anna continues to confuse me.  I want to like her, but I can’t—and why is it important that I like fictional characters?  It really isn’t, as long as they are good characters (and not so annoying that, like with Oblonsky, I have to yell whenever I read them because they are so annoying).  I was reading Dolly and Anna’s conversation in Part Six, Chapters XXIII and XXIV, two days ago, and it bordered on confusing, how many different directions my thoughts went.  If Anna were real and I had to spend time around her, I would dislike her.  But as a reader I see just enough of her private moments and her intense pain to pity her.  I don’t like her relationship with Vronsky, and this truly isn’t a love story (is it thought of as one?); they don’t strike me as people in love so much as people who ran into each other by accident, got stuck together somewhat by accident, and now cannot be separated.  Without Vronsky, Anna would have nothing, so she is desperate to keep him, even though she is unhappy.  And Vronsky… well, I suppose he’s given up a lot as well, though obviously not as much; he seems stuck to her out of some combination of stubborness, inertia, pity, and something else, which I would not call love, but which I think I understand just the same.  Maybe.

Everything is finished. I have nothing but you.Collapse )

May. 19th, 2013


The lemon is in play

In sort of a weird mood.  It's been an upside down weekend, with me being awake at all the wrong hours and asleep at all the wrong hours, and I'm very not happy with that.  As a result, this is probably not the mood I should be in when writing an entry, but whatever, I told myself I would so, I am.  Just get some thoughts out.

Work, Fandom, Reading, Etc.Collapse )

I can't believe it's Sunday night and I have to go to work tomorrow.  The thing is that it is possible to have a work week that is both productive and not horrible, where I'm not constantly looking forward to the next time I can sleep.  But I'm not sure I actually know how to make that happen, as opposed to just falling into it.  It's been such a bizarre weekend.  I'm tired of thinking about myself.

Apr. 14th, 2013


I don't care how hypothetical it is, I am not flying with a live otter in the flight deck

[March 5-April 14, 013]

Woah, it's been a long time.  Also LJ looks completely different now; I'm not sure how I feel about this.  I'm quite sure I don't like that all the spaces have disappeared from between the paragraphs on my stories.  What a pain in the ass to fix.

My impromptu vacation is going fairly well.  I've actually been writing again, which is awesome and feels really good.  It's been a very long block--or rather, a very long time during which I've directed my writing instincts to other avenues.  I still haven't gotten back into original writing, but that is just a whole different problem.  I can't find anything to write about that feels worth writing about.  It's frustrating.  I'm also really self-critical about my original writing and I feel like the stakes for it are so high.  This is kind of ridiculous, as it's not like I have to show my original work to anyone, or try to get published, but, I don't know, I can't help it.  It's quite paralyzing.

I do want to get my fanfiction projects under control, though, at least.  I recently got myself together enough to post a new chapter of the Epic.  But I still have maybe 3 unedited chapters, plus approximately a ton left to write.  I also have several, mostly long, Sherlock pieces that have been sitting around untouched for a while, and it all gets more obnoxious still, because my current projects folder is full of so much crap, finished and abandoned stories and blah, blah, blah.  I'm not even totally sure what's worth saving anymore and what's not.  Most of the Sherlock stuff I'm going to try to continue, and hope that the large hiatus in the middle of each piece isn't apparent in the writing.  Unfortunately, I'm not super excited about any of them.  What I really want is a writing project that excites me.  I can't even clear out my current ones and start over because a lot of them are long.  But they give me something to work on, which is good, at least.

I just feel like I need to get my mind around all of these projects, especially the stuff I need to edit and post (which is quite a bit of stuff, actually) and the stuff I should just give up as abandoned.  There are so many old projects in my writing folder, barely-started original works, fan works for fandoms I'm barely in anymore, like Star Trek.  I'm just so insistent when I look at them that maybe I'll finish them someday, but right now the clutter is just really driving me insane.  Getting rid of all of that disorganized mess is one of those projects that I think will be so easy that I can just do it one evening when I'm tired and have nothing else I feel like doing, but then as soon as I start I realize it's harder than that and I actually don't want to do it now, and thus it never gets done.  At some point, I just need to prioritize it.

Like today I am prioritizing making this list of current projects, something I always think will be helpful but only sometimes is.  Oh well.

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So it's literally been about a month since I started this entry because I've just been working on it a bit here and there.  I'm back at work now and busy and stressed and during the time when I'm not busy I'm just vegging, so not a whole lot of writing has been going on.  I'm still hoping that having written all this out has helped me, and that when I do have the time to get a bit of work done on these projects, I'll have this to look at to see sort of where I am with them.  I don't know, might not be helpful at all.  I still feel overwhelmed.  More specifically, I feel like I never really have the time to sink my teeth into any of these works; almost all of them will require some amount of re-reading, orienting myself in the universe again, and that sort of thing, and all I have time/energy for is a hundred words here, a hundred words there.  Bah humbug.

Dec. 22nd, 2012


Fic: Silhouettes of Snowflakes, a Holiday A-Z, for 221b_advent

Title: Silhouettes of Snowflakes, a Holiday A-Z
Pairing: Sherlock and John
Word Count: 2,600
Rating: G
Summary: Twenty-six holiday/winter drabbles of 100 words each.
Notes: Not my original idea and I'm not sure how I think of the finished product.  But oh well!  I counted hyphenated words as two words except in the case of "multi-coloured," because "multi" does not stand on its own as a word.  Each drabble is basically a standalone; I don't believe any contradict each other, but there is no bigger story here.  The relationship between Sherlock and John is purposefully ambiguous.
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I am making no money from this work.

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Nov. 3rd, 2012


Fic: Nonsense, Sherlock/John, John/OFC

Title: Nonsense
Pairing: Sherlock/John, John/OFC
Word Count: ~1,800
Rating: PG-13
Summary: "You've met the person who completes you...and you do not believe you were fated to find him?"
Notes: Short, strange bit of Halloween-type fic.  I offer no explanations nor excuses.
Also what why did I forget to unlock this?  Fail.
Warnings: This story features infidelity.  ...Also various supernatural creatures, including, but not limited to, vampires, ghosts, werewolves, and demons.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters (except Nadia, I suppose) and I am making no money from this work.

She smokes cloves. She smells nothing like Sherlock, and he hates that it's Sherlock he's thinking about nowCollapse )

Aug. 18th, 2012


Fic: hours, that with gentle work did frame, Fred/Hermione

Title: hours, that with gentle work did frame
Pairing: Fred/Hermione
Word Count: ~3,600
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Fred and Hermione, a series of meetings, a series of stories.
Notes: I wrote the beginning of this in 2008, and then abandoned it for years after I drifted out of the HP fandom.  A few months ago I decided to give it another go, because I have a lot of half-finished HP work and I think some of my best writing was for this fandom, back in the day.  I'm not sure how I like this piece now that it's finished, but I'm tired of fiddling with it; I'm ready for it to be done.
This fic takes place during OoTP and makes reference to events of that book.  I did not have it with me while writing most of this and it's been years since I've read it, so the references are very, very vague.  I apologize for any mistakes.
Hermione references "magic societies of the 1920s," which is a reference to another story I wrote, a Sirius/Remus AU for the rs_small_gifts community, Words Like Smoke.  Reading that story is not at all necessary for understanding this work.
The title is from Shakespear's Sonnet 5.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I am making no money from this work.

Until now their affair has been all held hansd and furtive glances and sentences with two meanings spoken in crowdsCollapse )

Aug. 10th, 2012


Fic: Scattered Cards, Harry/Clara

Title: Scattered Cards
Pairing: Harry/Clara
Word Count: ~2,200
Rating: PG
Summary: "That's Harry Watson.  You should be careful around her."
Notes: I set out to write porn, but then I wrote this instead.  Quite the fail.  This may or may not end up being part of a series.  The later parts of the series may or may not actually include porn.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I am not making any money off of this work.

beautiful women are always a battleCollapse )

Aug. 1st, 2012


Fic: John Watson Does Not See Ghosts, Sherlock/John

Title: John Watson Does Not See Ghosts
Pairing: Sherlock/John (Sherlock + John?)
Word Count: ~4,400
Rating: PG-13
Summary: It’s been six months since he’s had to wash blood off of himself in this shower, since he’s had to wring blood out of clothes in this sink, the sort of things a normal person would never miss.
Or: Nine times John sees Sherlock after the fall.
Notes: So probably everyone in the fandom is tired of post-Reichenbach stories in which John is sad.  But...I needed to write this anyway.  For myself.  Because of all of the feeeeelings.  It took a while to get it how I wanted it.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters and I am making no money from this work.

You should stop using all of the hot water, John. I hate cold showers.Collapse )

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